I'm back, We're back, no holding back, no turning back

Alright. I am back. No more false starts. No more excuses.

Ah- the changes since last post... Apparently all he wanted was a break. Woops. I took "break up" differently than he... dated again, tried to move on. Two months of pain for us both and we realized we love each other and want to be together forever. We are back together and bought a house. So I guess it doesn't get much more serious... but we're ready for it now. And whatever may have been missing is certainly not now. No holding back.

So... I have him coming along to the gym and I have my routine locked in place, but more importantly I have made a committment that transcends routine. I have to stick to what works (burn more than you consume SO SIMPLE!!) regardless of what is going on in my life. EVERY day.

Having his company at the gym was fun for me- In almost all areas I out work him. Having him there sparks a competitive streak in me that makes me move faster, longer, and smile while I do it. It is also fun and I end up doing a different variety of things than when alone. But I am not going to count on these workouts as the focus of my goals- these are like icing and just for fun. But I cannot get dependent on them because if he misses, I need to stay focused.

I have goals- and we have goals- that require a level of fitness I haven't quite reached. But I am determined.

We are doing a week of vegetarian eating. I think it will be fun. For today I made some home made hummus which we both loved. I want to be careful to not replace the meat with other high calorie foods like carbs and dairy. So easy to just pile on the cheese! I want to learn to make new things- like tofu and falafel.

The weather has gotten blustery and I just want to hibernate. I am trying to turn my attitude around and anticipate trying new things like cross country skiing...