10 lbs lost!
It feels bittersweet, since I was down to 169 last July, before my depression hit. But, hey, I rose up, dusted off the ashes and I am making progress again. I need to leave the old me behind- successes and failures of the past are the past. What I am today is all that matters.
But I guess I only partially like the me that I am today. I need to get past that. Because I can make all the changes in the world and still not like myself. Still not be happy. Still not be satisfied.
So. Today I have the reward of meeting the 10 lb goal after my hard work. Well, to be honest, it really isn't hard. There are difficult moments, but it has been fairly easy. Time consuming, though. SO, I guess I have made sacrifices and this is my reward for that.
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Completely consumed lately by my obsession with... hmm... what shall we call him? Ben. But I will be driving through his town tonight and will be breathing the air he breathes and will most likely make a side trip or two past his home and the places he frequents. And what good will that do me? None. In fact it will probably be detrimental. But that knowledge won't stop me.
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