hint, allegations, and things left unsaid...

I feel GOOD today. Lighter, brighter, energetic! Lost one more pound, despite my less than stellar performance. My clothes are looser. I have been staying within calorie my range, but barely. I have been exercising, but the minimum I can get away with.

I am frustrated that I have to work so hard to get to where I am--so far from where I want to be! When will I get there? Will I ever? And will it be worth it?

Had been up and down a bit, but finished the week down two pounds. This was a stressful week- finals and work stress and ??? BUT I made a decision not to take my summer class. I need the break. I feel like I am giving up a bit, because it isn't available again until next summer... but I can't justify throwing away half my summer at this point. I need a break. I need time for myself. Time for my body and health.

The dinner was WONDERFUL. And Scott loved it, like I thought he would. Still haven't really said anything to him outright. Have given some hints. Not to be sly or play games or anything, just loosening up a bit and holding back a little less. And maybe that's the way it should go- slow and easy and natural. A few times this week I wondered if he wasn't flirting with me...

Last night when I got up to leave, he said "Don't go." And it seems every time I do leave we end up lingering at the door saying one more thing... just one more thing...

But maybe I am just imagining it all to mean something I want it to mean. Won't know until I am bold enough to ask. Won't see him tonight.

Ha Ben, your grip is finally loosening. I haven't checked your facebook page in a week. Of course I did make a mental note of a place you will be soon from an invitation you responded to publicly. Oh, fb makes it way too easy...